Oy

Well, the nightmares have started.

The other night, I dreamed that it was the day of the bar exam, and I was freaking out because, in typical fashion, I hadn't studied, and I'd hardly done any of the practice multiple choice questions from barbri. These are both non-dream facts, by the way. I had real fear in my heart that I would fail.

I guess the message from this is: now I really do need to start prepping for the bar.

I've been a bit better recently, and at the very least I've been productive, even if not solely on bar stuff. I finally found a place to stay for my trip to LA next week (something that was stressing me out) and have started making appointments to view apartments. The only strange thing about this process is that there are so few places that are ready to rent when I need them. I don't mean that I'm too late; on the contrary, I'm too early. From the looks of it, people who want to live in LA just waltz into town a week or so before they plan to move and get a place then. Every ad I see is "available now!!!" (the excalamation marks are key) or "available 8/1/05." I want a place in September. And I want the security of having a forwarding address -- and a place to send the movers -- a reasonable amount of time in advance. So is this just a Los Angeles thing, or are people in other cities this fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants? Because, hey, I'm all about being laid-back and learning to surf, but I'm just a little too anal for this. Gah.

In other news, for the second time this week I've turned in an essay with literally seconds to spare (in case the barbri folks are counting, which they probably aren't). Apparently if you send in late essays, they're now sending auto responses telling you they won't grade them (I'm actually afraid to reload my inbox right now, lest the email kiss of death visit itself upon me). Bitches. If they were being on time with their grade returns, I'd grudgingly admit they have the right to do this. But I have received a total of one grade when I should have received at least two or three by now. So imho they have no right to be nazis about deadlines when they aren't getting us our grades when they promised. Whatever. It's not like they're particularly helpful anyway. But, my nervous mind keeps nagging, your clock may be a few minutes off! In which case I could be screwed, by no real fault of my own (seriously, if turning something in at the absolute deadline isn't okay, then they shouldn't have absolute deadlines. I have a point here. Right?) Then again, if they're counting this by California time, I may have screwed myself out of the extra five minutes I could have used to finish my brilliant (meaning "mostly incompetent") exposition on corporate fiduciary responsibilities. (Thank GOD I'm gonna be a litigator.*) Okay, I really need to stop thinking about this. Like, now.

Back to Mario.

*I assume. My firm still hasn't told me what I'll be doing. Which majorly sucks, because the closer I get to actually working, the more I think I'll be unhappy with anything other than IP lit. DAMMIT, if they are going to give me something else I need more time to adjust to the crushing disappointment!**

**I swear to God I'm not a spoiled brat. I'm just sleepy, slightly tipsy from my wine, and just a tad PMS-y.